Baby Friday- 20 Weeks

Western Day at school, so Mase is decked out in his boots and belt buckle and holding his sisters ultrasound photos. He told me it was his new brother.
Western Day at school, so Mase is decked out in his boots and belt buckle and holding his sisters ultrasound photos. He told me it was his new brother.

We had the best vacation ever. It was super short and involved a TON of driving and some wrong directions, but Northern California is just breathtaking and one one time with my two favorite guys with no crazy work emails or dishes was just the best thing ever.

Mason got to see some sharks first hand, but he was annoyed they don’t have whale sharks, and is still requesting a visit to the Georgia Aquarium. Josh told him when he gets $300 in his piggy bank we can go. He makes me help him count his pennies every day now. Poor thing, he has a ways to go!

Our 20 week anatomy scans went really well, they confirmed she’s a girl, (whew I don’t think I can return all of those bows….), and she’s healthy and happy in there. I’m just thankful and awed that there’s a new life growing inside of me and praying she stays safe and comfy until its time to come out.

Total workout fail AGAIN, and I basically ate my way through Monterey, so no wonder I feel huge. I’m trying to get back into some kind of rhythm with a schedule for cleaning my house  and working out around my other work, but someone please tell me it actually is hard to fit in working out when you have a job and a husband and a toddler and you’re pregnant. I feel like I’m being so lame and just not trying hard enough and then I have nightmares about being a literal beached whale and its terrifying. I hate making excuses for myself but, por ejemplo ,last night after sweating my face off all day, taking Mase and picking him up from preschool, doing the grocery shopping, feeding the child, working 8 hours and then cleaning the kitchen, cooking dinner, then cleaning the kitchen again, then getting Mase ready for bed, I put a giant pillow under my slightly swollen cankles on the coffee table and announced to the room that Mommy and/or Jess have officially clocked out for the evening, so thank you and good day.  Josh brought me my phone and the tv remote and gallon of water and I didn’t move for 2 hours. Thank you fall premieres….(OMG…Scandal….). I should have taken that opportunity to work out or clean something or maybe work more but when you look down and your ankles are thick its either lie down and relax or just throw in the towel all together right? I can’t be alone in feeling this way.

Here’s to week 21 and maybe cooler temperatures and little less whining. 🙂

 

Week: 20
Date: 9/26/14

How big is baby? A banana. About 10 inches from head to foot. We’re starting to grow here folks.

Pregnancy symptoms? Tired and chubby. ( I sometimes just leave last weeks answers since they still apply)

Cravings? Nothing crazy this week. I mean I always want things I probably shouldn’t eat so I can’t really blame the baby for that. I did freakishly demand a frosty from Wendy’s recently and holy cow those things are amazing!

Aversions? Nothing new besides egg and sweating to death in this blasted heat from the pit of hell.

Best moment this week? A healthy baby scan at our big anatomy ultrasound this week. I’ve been especially anxious this pregnancy for some reason and hearing “oh there’s a perfect heart” and “oh look, good brain blah blah blah” is just so comforting.

What are you looking forward to next week? Hmmm nothing comes to mind. Maybe a temperature below 89?

What emotions have you been experiencing this week? Still hot. And very annoyed with this work/life balance thing that I fail at consistently.

Are you wearing maternity clothes? No but not because I don’t need them. I need a stylist, I just opt for leggings and tunic tanks and when that’s too hot I wear my cut offs and that horrid belly band.

Any stretch marks? Not yet.

How much weight have you gained? Offically 11 pounds per the doctor. It feels like 400 so I’ll take 11.

Belly button in or out? In

Felt anything? Every now and then I think I do. Nothing consistent and nothing serious but occasionally she reminds me she’s there.

Know gender? Totally a girl.

Names? Scarlett. Josh is still pretending he doesn’t know what’s going on.

What baby project are you working on? I found bedding that might work perfectly this week at Pottery Barn, and if so, I’m going to die of happiness.

Any guesses on when you’ll go into labor? Ugh.

xoxo,

Jess

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Baby Friday- 19 Weeks

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This week was actually pretty awesome. And by awesome
I mean it just didn’t suck so I’m really excited about it. It’s early to tell but Mason has had the best week since we started school and both days his teacher said he did well, so I’m ecstatic.

My main complaint was that it was 5000 degrees and blistered the skin to walk outside. Today was the first day in a week, at least, that I could breathe normally outside. It was around 86 and breezy and I almost grabbed my sweater I was so confused.

Josh found out that his next class was cancelled which would cause a lot of drama for us, including trying to cram a class in with a 3 week old hanging out, but he also found out his administrator graciously decided to waive the class for the students in Josh’s program since it was seriously ruining everyone’s lives. So instead of a lot of upheaval, Josh gets an unexpected 6 week break before his very last class. It seriously could not have come at a better time. When Josh first told me about the class drama, I literally screamed I CAN’T EVEN. It’s probably one of the first times in my life I sensed I shouldn’t worry about something and I actually didn’t. Which I think is strictly due to the fact that I was so stressed out about Mase and work and everything else I’m failing at in life that my brain literally couldn’t worry about anything else. It was amazing! And a few days later Josh told me it had been resolved and in the best way possible and I really just wish I could NOT worry about things more often. That’s my new goal. 🙂

We had some spin victories this week, but strength training fails. I’ve been having some weird tightness/crampy feelings after working out and besides just the general exhaustion it stresses me out so I’m trying to take it easy. And then I stupidly volunteered to bake for Mason’s school PTA event and I’ve got pans of lemon bars and chocolate chip cookies just hanging around my kitchen. Oh and I signed up for the gluten free cookies and totally wimped out and went for the pre made mix, but it was one I’ve never used before, and the cookies are literally crumbling like dust. I’m letting them cool and praying over them but I have a feeling I’ll be arranging lovely gluten free JoJos on a nice plate at 3pm tomorrow afternoon. 😂

The baby is fine, I think I felt her move Monday or Tuesday night which is terrifying because what the heck is she doing the rest of the time?! Speaking of not worrying, I’m pretty sure I will have anxiety about this child no matter what I try to do.

We’re packing up on Sunday for a super quick trip and our one and only vacation this crazy year, and I am just so happy and excited. This trip is quick and close and I’m just so grateful for the opportunity to spend some time together just the three of us. Life has been so nuts lately and it will only get more crazy once our little lady comes along and I am just so happy we get a few days to rest and reconnect and see a whole bunch of Masons great loves, sharks.

Week: 19
Date: 9/19/14

How big is baby? A zucchini . Or 6 inches long and approximately 8 ounces.

Pregnancy symptoms? Tired and chubby.

Cravings? We’re back to ice things. Ice chips, slurpees, ice water, Popsicles etc

Aversions? Egg. Let’s not speak of the hard boiled egg incident that happened at the pool this week Jackson.

Best moment this week? Good sweet moments playing trains with my little boy. He started calling me “mama” which I have no idea where it comes from but hearing his little voice say “do you want to play trains with me mama? For just a little teeny tiny while ok?” Is just the best thing ever.

What are you looking forward to next week? VACATION !! And my 20 week ultrasound.

What emotions have you been experiencing this week? Mostly I was just hot.

Are you wearing maternity clothes? No, I got so frustrated there’s like nothing for when you’re just chubby but not hugely pregnant yet. It’s too hot for maxi skirts so I’ve just been wearing my cut offs unbuttoned and hoping I’m not offending people.

Any stretch marks? Not yet.

How much weight have you gained? I seriously can’t even consider it. Probably so much.

Belly button in or out? In

Felt anything? Monday night for sure some kicks! More like ballet twists it’s the strangest feeling ever, all I remember are the ninja kicks to the kidney I got at the end so this part is totally freaking me out.

Know gender? Totally a girl.

Names? Still Scarlett and/or Garlic. Although I called her Garlic to mason and he corrected me to “Her name is Sarleck mama, Sarleck”. I like Garlic better.

What baby project are you working on? Nothing really. Once it cools off I’m determined to get her nursery put together. Basically Halloween until she gets here is booked for us so I need to at least have the basics done before then or I’ll go crazy.

Any guesses on when you’ll go into labor? Nope! But I’m considering an L&D photographer so that’s fun. 🙂

xoxo,

Jess

Baby Friday- Week 18

18 weeks. My thighs are pregnant too.
18 weeks. My thighs are pregnant too.

 

Well I wish this week was better but it just wasn’t. I don’t want to repeat the drama but basically parenting is hard  and that basically sums it up. I am working on focusing on the good days and letting go of the rough ones, and its not easy but I’m trying.

This week was also a total workout fail. Tuesday set a bad precedent with my bad gym experience, and then Wednesday just was what it was, and then Thursday I had a meeting and actually today I did my prego strength training DVD so that’s better than nothing. Probably won’t outweigh the ice cream I had last night or the chips I ate like an hour ago but whatever.

I’m going shopping for some other options for clothes, my pants are tight and my tanks are too thin and show my sneaky rubber band trick and it annoys me, so hopefully I can find something fun. I have my eye on the Paige maternity denim because it just has fun elastic panels in the sides, no gross giant band that rolls up to your boobs. We’ll see what I find. I might need some new “maternity” boots too, since it’s technically fall.

I also decided to last minute participate in a Fantasy Football league which is amazing, since we used an auto-draft because we were late, and I have the most random and awkward group of players ever. (yes, even Ray Rice made my cut) Anyway, this whole adventure is perking up my whole weekends. My heart belongs to the Chargers but they have a tendency to break it basically until December and then again in January, so this is helping ease the pain.

We’re taking a quick last minute vacation to take Mase to the Monterrey Aquarium next weekend and I am SO excited. Its our first ever just the three of us family vacation, and I am just so happy. Mase is obsessed with sea life right now, specifically sharks, and he really wants to go to the Georgia Aquarium, but I told him we had to start with Monterrey until he saved enough in his piggy bank for a flight to Atlanta. He thinks he can trade a toy for a flight, so I told him to try and let me know how it works out. Until then, we’ll try Monterrey. 🙂

Oh and being pregnant is fine, I am starting to have trouble sleeping because my sciatica is acting up, which is to be expected. I’m extra tired and annoyed but other than that I’m feeling great and almost half done! We have our big 20 week ultrasound on the 24th and that’s always a fun one. Until then, I’ll just buy more bows.

 

 

Week: 18
Date: 9/12/14

How big is baby? A bell pepper. Or 5 inches long and approximately 6 ounces.

Pregnancy symptoms? A lot of feelings.

Cravings? Nutella. Okay so that’s not a pregnancy thing, its probably just a life thing. Besides Nutella, chai tea lattes and sandwiches. Like big fat ones with extra pickles.

Aversions? God help me if I see another egg.

Best moment this week? Hmmm this week was tough. Oh yes! Seeing my Uncle Charlie & Aunt Jill last Monday. They have a special place in my heart and I hate that we’re so far away from each other most of the time.

What are you looking forward to next week? A fresh new week with no mistakes in it yet.

What emotions have you been experiencing this week? Ever. Single. One.

Are you wearing maternity clothes? I am going to get some this weekend. At least some thicker tank tops. My tanks show the rubber band trick I’m using on my jeans (the photo above, exhibit A), and it bugs me. I pulled down my maternity clothes box which is a joke. I was like Josh where are all my maternity clothes and he laughed for like an hour and reminded me that I refused to buy them except for like 2 pairs of hideous jeans and a few shirts and just wore regular clothes then got rid of all of my regular clothes because I hated them after I wore them pregnant. Some plans aren’t as smart as you thought they were at the time. I’m just hot and uncomfortable and tired of it this time so I’m giving in early.

Any stretch marks? Not yet.

How much weight have you gained? Still waiting but I’m guessing like 45 pounds already.

Belly button in or out? In

Felt anything? Every now and then maybe a flutter but its really annoying me because I can’t see in there and those kicks are all I have to go on. I know, I know I’ll be complaining about it in a few months when I can’t sleep and I’ve got a 9 pound baby doing cartwheels and back flips 24/7 but for now its just nervous.

Know gender? Totally a girl.

Names? I’m still calling her Scarlett and Josh just ignores me. Mason calls her Garlic and that pretty much sold me. 100%.

What baby project are you working on? I color coded her bow collection and also hung up the clothes she has so far in Mason’s closet. A lot of accomplishments. I have a plan for her nursery corner and I’m just waiting until it cools off because I plan to restore an old dresser and turn it into a changing table/dresser combo, then do something amazing I saw in the Pottery Barn catalog with a canopy and gold glitter dots. But its too flipping hot to do anything like that. Hopefully it goes below 80 degrees before February.

Any guesses on when you’ll go into labor? This week I want to schedule a C section in advance. I change my mind about weekly about it so who knows.

xoxo,

Jess

Baby Friday- 17 Weeks

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***Spoiler Alert…. I wrote this last night…***

Well first of all I skipped a week and here is why. We had a family trip scheduled to Phoenix for Labor Day weekend that was thrown all crazy because my mom got vertigo the Tuesday before we were supposed to leave. The plan was for Mase and I to fly out Thursday and my mom and dad and Josh would drive in Friday, then we would all drive back together. Well, for starters, Josh tells me he has to cancel because he has to work all weekend. But no worries, my parents were still trying to come. Then Thursday morning hits and things got crazy. Mama Phelan was too sick to travel so we cancelled the trip, then figured it out and it was back on for just Mase and me. Which ended up being a awesome but with all that mess there was no time for photos and blog posts. Which is upsetting to me on so many levels. Now we will forever be missing the “16 Weeks” photo of this second child, and any hopes I had for some kind of complete collage are dunzo. Anyway, continue reading and see how this is the least of my problems.

Overall the pregnancy has been pretty uneventful. I’m still fighting with eggs and raw chicken, and craving ice and crunchy things like chips and nuts. Sometimes I can see the baby bump trying to show itself, mostly it just looks like a fat roll though.

My biggest thing going on right now is Mase. His teacher has pointed out to me that he “has a lot of trouble following directions” and she has to remind him to listen a lot. To which my feelings were, a) not surprised at all and, b) what exactly are the expectations for a 2 year old? Anyway that conversation was a good little reminder that no matter how much work I have or how tired I am, neglecting to train and parent Mase isn’t an option. So I’ve really been trying to focus and spend more time with him and consistently discipline with consistent standards.

I. Am. Exhausted. And can I just tell you I’m pretty sure it’s actually worse? I mean it’s been about a week that I’ve really been trying to get back in the game, and today was the roughest day we’ve had in a long time. By far. This day was full of time outs and tears and spankings. Like full. And he was gone for 4 hours and napped another 3. Literally Josh walked in from work to me in tears as Mason was screaming he hates to eat foodies and he just wants to play. I got him out of his booster seat trying to remain composed as he ran gleefully to Daddy. I also hadn’t showered since my 9am spin class (lovely) so I used Daddy’s convenient arrival as an excuse to shower and cry in private.

There are just so many things. I mean there’s outright defiance and disobedience that we’re working on, then there’s eating and food issues and he’s been constipated and that’s causing potty training issues and maybe that’s why he’s been such a hellion but who knows and he’s testing me and pushing me and thinks it’s funny to launch himself off the top of our couch because he likes to fly. I am literally hanging on by threads trying to balance work and mommy and wife and it is days like today that get a big fat F in all 3. So I cried in the shower in wonderful, perfect peace and then pulled it together to get dressed and when Josh came to check on me cried some more. Bless that man and his thoughtful “I’m really listening to you right now” face. He doesn’t realize it but when he looks at me like that while I’m blubbering about failing at everything and ruining Masons life and locking myself in the closet I remember all of the reasons why I fell in love with him in the first place. It’s a balance to calm me and reassure me without patronizing me or invalidating my feelings. He is tested often, and he just does it do well. He’s just the best thing ever.

So I still haven’t fully recovered, Mase has been super excited to show dad all his new shark books from the library and I’m sitting on the couch blogging on my phone because it’s too long for a FB post and isn’t the internet just a big diary? I’m a little too tired and a little too frustrated and a little too anxious about tomorrow to fully get it, but I am grateful in the midst of the unrest in my heart there are just small whispers in my soul saying all kinds of things like, “my grace is sufficient for you”, “You can do all things because I am your strength”, “for the joy set before me, I endured the cross, and I did it for you, I did it for Mason, and I did it for days like today “, “My mercies are new every morning”, “I work ALL things together for the good of those who love me”, “you do not have a great high priest who is unable to sympathize with your weaknesses, but I sympathize with every single one of them.” Oh and that song “Come To Me” by Bethel music. There is a lot of whispering happening. And obviously I paraphrase the Bible in my head and add things. I know that’s frowned upon.

So as we end this random long post, all that is in my heart to share is that today was hard and I am certain I did not overflow with grace and love to toddler as I attempted to train him. I am grateful for a Savior who loves me as much today as he does every other day, and praying for the grace simply point that precious child I have been entrusted with for this short life to that same love and mercy. Oh and praying for the one that’s coming because #fixitJesus. For real.