I felt approximately the same today as I did yesterday, not horrible but not good either. Although my heart does say cheese dip, and it may do so forever. I am so freaking tired I can barely keep it together and today was my first day in the office to manage. I did pretty well overall, in action but not in heart. In my heart I was not making good choices. I brought my lunch so I wouldn’t be tempted by the French fries and beer at the brewery below us, and my orange tea to drink instead of coffee. My incredibly sweet boss even got me lemon and ginger to spice it up a little bit, bless him. I was grateful but still rotten.
I know I need to be patient but I’m really not feeling very well and it’s so hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that this part will actually make me feel better in the long run. It’s just so crazy to me that the food that you eat can make you so sick and I know intellectually how that makes sense but I feel physically ill right now so it’s hard to stay motivated. Like it’s not tobacco or cocaine it’s food! I understand how the effects can be similar and obviously I’m an angry addict in food rehab right now but still, boo.
However, I am a firm believer that you can get through anything if you have an end date, so 26 more days I can do. Hopefully with a better attitude for the rest of it though cause dammmmmn I am not a happy camper. Sorry for the negative nancy post I really shouldn’t complain so much just in general but for sure about this. I mean cry me a river I’m eating healthy fresh food and I’m so angry about it 😂. Worst problems ever.
Breakfast: scrambled eggs in ghee again which I’m starting to love, and BACON!!!!! I found a brand called Applegate and they have it at Target, totally hormone and chemical free, grass fed pigs, unpreserved with no nitrates etc. Basically the longest label description ever. But it was SO good! Even Josh approved.
Lunch: leftover Chipotle Pork and Pineapple cole slaw from last night. Just as good the 2nd time, even a little spicier! Yummmm!
Dinner: Chipotle baby!!!! Josh has class Thurs night and I just couldn’t be bothered to cook so I did a salad with barbacoa beef and fajita veggies and guacamole. It was amazing and embarrassingly huge and sorry for the iphoneogeaphy but I just had to share how delicious this was.
After Mase went to bed I cut up some strawberries and a banana and threw it in a bowl with blueberries and blackberries, a dash of cinnamon and then I had a mishap with the shredded coconut and it DUMPED into the bowl so there was definitely an excessive amount of coconut shreds. But still yum and although not ice cream or a brownie at least it wasn’t water. #brightside